I wonder why I couldn't like it as much as The Year if Magical Thinking. As far as I remember the style is similar, but honestly Blue Night feels like a long & endless rambling & rantung on getting old & losing her child. I had a feeling that she's flabbergasted that all priviledged life didn't shield her from grief; and it's tiring to read her premonitions. Of course I understand that writing is a way of handling grief, but somehow she didn't work out much of it; even in comparison to TYoMT. It actually feels like she was having a set back. Or maybe it's because I'm infinitely better now that I can't relate/understand the grief anymore.