It turned out, when one's life is full of emotion and one's hormones were doing revolution, what one need to read is a dry impassionate description of architecture. It calmed down the heat and distract the mind to think of calming thing such as spaces and forms. Writing description of architecture and conveying the ideas and intention behind it, that's something tricky and actually a situation where "dry" is advantageous. Can somebody imagine a space only through text description? Maybe there's somebody who can. I, myself, confess of cheating and googling my way through Foster's buildings.